How many times have you heard

“Well, we met and hurmmm … we went out a few times then … things just took off from there”?

Well, maybe dozens or most of the time that is the case. Most of your friends who are in a long term relationship and most probably you yourself can easily recall the name of the bar, restaurant or coffee bean where they first met or date officially but it’s very rare anyone who can just pinpoint the defining moment when

“She’s / He’s just someone I’m seeing,”

transformed and be translucently appeared as

“My Girlfriend / Boyfriend”.

You got the vibe?

Now, crossing the dateline as some would say is something rather interesting and awkward at the same time. This usually happens in the initial first few dates that you have with this particular someone. Question arise are,

“Are we …?” or “We’re aren’t … right?”.

It can be rather tricky in a way. Of course you will come out with the idea of,

“Why not just you tell her how you feel and then see whether she feels the same way too?”.

It’s not easy too. You need the right time to ask that because sometimes you might just blew your chances away. Then you’ll say :

“Here we go again …”

What would you do? Been through this and not everytime it goes on well.

During the early stages of a relationship so to speak, I usually do not refer to my date as my girlfriend especially in the company of close friends and I supposed all of us men are like that in a way, I hope so. You wouldn’t want to look or sounds like a Lulu wouldn’t you?

And you’re friends would always assume that “Oh, this must be THAT person” and I hope they do because the not so best thing that I would want to hear is the most unanswerable-question-of-all-time-when-you-bring-your-date-who-is-not-yet-your-girlfriend :

“Who is this, Cibol?”

And you know that they would not be looking at answers

“Oh, meet Katie” – Assuming that her name is Katie

They will smile but will never be satisfied by that answer. They want more. They want to know who is Katie to me.

and will come the most confusing part of

“Damn, how should I answer this?”

If you say – She’s my girlfriend

What if she doesn’t feel like wanting to be with you?

And if you say – Nope, she’s just a friend

What if she was really into you and you might have just blow your chances by saying that.

You know what? Men do seek approval from friends as much as women do.

Why I say sometimes it’s hard? It’s because it is always punctuated by landmark moments that can make or break a budding relationship. Sometimes it got complicated. So how do we do this progress from a once or twice a week date-stage to maybe having a blog with both of you as authors? Or maybe signing a birthday card from the both of you?

Aiyo …

****Today, I just feel like giving up blogging …****

As it says :

Now all of you ManUre’s and Roonie-The-Pooh-Poos-Naldo fans,

Love me or Hate me!

Have you ever felt like missing someone so badly? Wanting that someone so badly? It’s like something that you could never let go of. That particular feeling is like tattooed to your heart. it hurts when that someone is not around and you’ll continue and continue to miss them. It could go on and on.

Funny isn’t it? It’s so funny that that particular feeling can actually turns your world upside down although not many will admit but they do. Missing someone is a terrible but at the same time, sweet feeling. You will be sitting around wondering if you meant anything to him/her. Thinking if he/she ever cares about you, rushing to the phone once it rings hoping that it’s him/her. Funny …

So, could it be any harder? Tell them you love them then. If you can’s say it. Just sing it. Like I do. I love you. That three magical words. This song is dedicated to all of you who have been kind enough to stay this long and listen to my craps. Enjoy!

So Just To Let You Know - Words & Music by cibol

Verse 1:
I’d like to close my eyes and feel the warmth of your hands
I’d like to be endured in this never-ending dream
The thought of you made it possible
The longing is so incureable
And I .. believe

chorus :
It’s like a tattoo in my heart
I can never let it go
So hard to be apart
So just to let you know
I can’t live without you by my side
Won’t ever think of letting go
So just to let you know
I love you so …

verse 2 :
Riding through the crossroads of my life
I find myself just lost inside this misery
Then came along a ray of wonderous sillhouette
You shine upon my life and now I’m freed
And I … believe

Bridge :
And I can think of a million lies
When it comes to loving you
But i can’t stand to fool myself anymore
Cause you’re the one i want
I can never let you go …

How did that go? It got a little bit off towards the end because I was exhausted and I don’t give a damn to good recording. Tired of singing it from A to Z …

Speaking of writing more songs, should I try songs in BM?

It’s very nice to dream or having a big dream. There’s a drive in life but when you dream too much .. not going to give you any good.

PUTRAJAYA 28 Jan. – Kecekapan kerajaan Malaysia semakin meningkat dan kini adalah yang keenam terbaik di dunia berbanding tempat kelapan pada tahun 2000, kata Datuk Seri Abdullah Ahmad Badawi.

Sambil memetik World Competitiveness Year Book yang dikeluarkan oleh IMD, sebuah institusi pengajian perniagaan terkemuka berpejabat di Switzerland, Perdana Menteri berkata, Malaysia yang tergolong dalam negara-negara mempunyai 20 juta penduduk atau lebih mengatasi United Kingdom, Jerman, Thailand, Sepanyol, Jepun, Rusia dan Perancis.

“Di atas kita ialah China, Kanada, USA, India dan Taiwan,” katanya ketika berucap kepada ribuan kakitangan awam pada Majlis Perdana Perkhidmatan Awam (Mappa) kelapan di sini hari ini. - Bernama

This is one fucking blasphemy …

Dream on Dollah, dream on …

Every memory of looking out the back door
I have a photo album spread out on my bedroom floor

This is where I was raised for five years. This is where I grew up. I missed every single bits of my life in this place. I bet so does the rest of the us who grew up in this place. It’s been 9 years since then. Can you believe it?

Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for

So faraway …

As the tile says it, finally a dream come true for 19-year-old Kirsten Haglund when she was crowned Miss America 2008 on Saturday. I must say she’s pretty cute. I love watching Miss this Miss that, I mean who doesn’t. Beautiful things are for us to appreciate and to drool over.

**Drools** - Image courtesy of : Yahoo!

Wahsai !! - Image courtesy of : Yahoo!

Singing “Somewhere Over The Rainbow”- Image courtesy of : Yahoo!

Sexy - Image courtesy of : Yahoo!

Elegant - Image courtesy of : Yahoo!

Some of the contestants which I think bad either. For example Miss Iowa

Diana Reed - Image courtesy of : Yahoo!

So, what’s next? Sleeping with The Blonde Romeo Trump? Or educate the man on the danger of eating disorder? Or maybe on the hairstyle .. I don’t know

You might have heard people talking about how hard it is to maintain a sustainable relationship when it comes to distance. Some might just tell you that it’s only a myth, something that you can only find in movies sort of stuffs and it’s not practical nowadays to have a long distance relationship. I was never really involved in long distance relationships before and to have a say on this might be a little bit awkward to me. I am not saying that I don’t believe in it because to say that I’ve seen some of my friends made it through the rain. So, it would not be something that I would like to call a myth either. It will happen when it happen.

Long distance relationships require a special willingness and understanding that can test love like no other type of relationship can. It requires constant communication and a desire to continually create your relationship, using the only real tool you have that is your words. In another word communication is the most important thing but I do believe that it is not only for long distance relationships but also for every single relationships that is there.

Now, comes another question sometimes ; Is it worth it?

Well I think any person worth having is worth waiting a few years for. If you both have something really special then take the plunge. You’d be surprised at how well a long distance relationship can work out. Granted, it won’t be easy and you’ll both go through your bouts of loneliness. However, the rewards for making it through are worth every lonely second. Believe me, I’ve seen these happen.

The path of life tends to pull people in different directions. Some random turn of events can sometimes have the power to decide the fate of a couple. For instance, if a guy is being relocated across the country due to a promotion at work, and his gal gal is doing just fine in her present career, they inevitably end up going their separate ways.

Sometimes young lovers are forced to call it quits because they end up attending different colleges in different cities, states, or even continents. I’ve seen that happen too, a lot of time - let’s just say, most of the time. They tend to believe that physical space between them will affect the solidity of the relationship because of their “undying” love for each other most probably can’t surpass this seemingly gigantic obstacle and what happen next is one of them will start to feel very lonely and begin to look around for maybe at what the relationship market have to offer and I don’t deny that it sometimes happen to both parties too.

I think one of the most difficult parts of a long distance is handling the fact that you are not physically there with your significant other - I like that word. This lack of physical presence can make the whole relationship seem like an illusion, something that is so unreal I would say. I am sure that almost every person in this kind of relationship has wondered at some point about whether the relationship was actually real or just wishful thinking, a dream that would probably won’t come true. With this in mind, I think it is very important to create a presence for yourself in your partner’s life to provide a stable reality that you are a couple and that you are a part of one another. That’s to add to the - “Yes, we can do it” factor.

I’ve seen it happen before and I do believe it will work - Eventhough it’s not as easy as saying it but if a relationship have Love as its backbone and as long as the other partner feels that you completely and unconditionally love them, those doubts will not have a chance to creep in. It is up to you to make sure they know exactly how you feel about them. Tell them eventhough you’re not there - You’ll be just two steps behind.

This goes out to Carol and Dentonel

Sorry guys that I didn’t get the chance to sing this at your wedding thus I’m putting it here for you. Enjoy and have a nice weekend!

You’re my Honeybunch

Sugarplum Pumpy-umpy-umpkin

You’re my Sweetie Pie

You’re my Cuppycake

Gumdrop Snoogums-Boogums

You’re the Apple of my Eye

You will always be beautiful in my eyes
And The passing years will show
That you will always grow
Ever more beautiful in my eyes

Love them or hate them. That’s the only way. I grew up living with people who are big fans of Hindustan Movies. My mom, my aunts - all of them, they’re suckers for bollywood movie long before. They’ve been there since the era of Amitabh Batchan, Hema Malini, Sashi kapoor and many more. Name it, my mom sure know one. I was never a big fan but I admit I did watch a few bits like “Kuch Kuch Hota Hai“, “Kabhi Khushi Kabhie Gham” and a few others that I can’t really remember.

Image Courtesy of : Flickr, uploaded by kefoue

Now, I actually got this from a friend who was kind enough to humor me with something he found from the intranet when I was busy working. I was really busy okay - But I stopped and keep on laughing and laughing about what I read. I do think it’s funny too. It says :

Things You Ought To Know About Hindustan Movies

A man will show no pain while taking the most ferocious beating but will wince when a woman tries to clean his wounds.

The hero cannot fall in love with the heroine (vice versa) unless they first perform a dance number in the rain.

Once applied, make up is permanent be it with thunderstorm or comes whatever may. It will still be there - Flashing and shining.

Two lovers can be dancing in the field and out of nowhere, 100 people will appear from God knows where and joins them in the dance.

in the final scene, the hero will discover that the bad guy who he is up against is actually his brother and the maid who looked after him is his mother and the chief inspector is his father and the judge is his uncle and so on and so forth …

Key English words used in the movie (Usually will be said out loud in between sentences) are

No Problem!
My God!
Get Out!
Shut Up!
Impossible!
Please forgive me!

They drop down on the grounds and then roll and roll while singing and will come out with different clothing.

They can round around the coconut trees, singing, battling eye-lids and throwing glances at each other and change clothes all at the same time without being out of breath.

I share with you lor .. Funny bah!

P/S : Did you noticed that the actresses all got D cup one?

Got this from Angel. Nice lerr .. You can try it out here.

It’s a little bit of an eye popping feeling when you wake up in the morning just to find you have 33 comments to reply on your latest post. I thought, “Damn, this must be how those femes blogger feel”. And for that reason maybe that’s why some of them don’t even bother to reply to their comments also but STILL, people come and read their blog. No, not that I’m jealous - getting twenty plus comments per post is already so flattering for me.

I came back from work late yesterday. Yes, LATE. When I say late, it’s really late. I reached home around 9:00 pm. NO, I was not waiting for monorail or LRT because we don’t friggin have it here in Bintulu. The reason why I was late? My end of the day ledger was not balance and it’s okay if it’s 20-30 cents or a few ringgits, I don’t mind but this is a staggering RM 2,499.99 - How cool can that be?

I really felt like crying yesterday and in my mind - There goes my Jay Chou concert, there goes my Labuan trip and there goes my whole three freaking months punya gaji if like this! I will die I tell you. What am I going to eat in the next few monts? RM 2,499.99 is not a small amount for a noob slave like me that’s like my almost 2 months pay cheque! And yes, I was not really worried about I’m not going to eat but more to that I’m worried about not being able to watch Jay Chou’s concert. Not that I’m a big fan but I don’t like it when something gets in the way of my plans. I know - Like who does?

I only did two big transactions today. One a withdrawal of the amount RM 20,000 and another one a lady with two plastic bags full of money which I counted RM 13,430. I hate being a teller! It’s just that because another sorry ass teller was on leave I have to go downstairs and be in her place. My boss is pretty damn ************************! (Fill in the blanks). I’m going to tell him, don’t ever let me be in that position again.

Try and try so hard, still we can’t find the solution and at 7:30 pm Johny called me and he said that we just have to do a report - One of our tellers got cash in hand short on end of the day. Doesn’t sound cool and he actually said sorry to me and told me that he have no choice. He wanted to help but if the management found out, he’ll be doom also. I understand that.

I was speechless. That’s the end of it. Forget about being confirmed by end of this month and forget about working in a bank - ever. I went out for a while, had a glass of beer and suddenly Lee called.

“Hey, I called the lady don’t cry ah .. You actually miscounted her money. There’s an excess of RM2,500”

You know how I feel after that? - Only God knows how.

I ran to Johny and told him about it. he smiled and said.

“Reverse the transaction”

So, that’s what I did until 9:00 pm. Exhausted, that’s why no post last night.