I actually recorded a cover for estranged - Itu Kamu back a few months ago. I really like the song. it’s very very raw, just for fun so I put it up. Afiqme, put up some touches on it.

The track was originally recorded with Audacity. I mixed it back with little touch of compressor and EQ. Then I duplicate the track and pan the original track 50% left and the duplicated track 50% right. I add few reverb on the right track to make the sound brighter and alive.

It sounded pretty cool. Enjoy the song! Thanks bro!

Have you ever felt like missing someone so badly? Wanting that someone so badly? It’s like something that you could never let go of. That particular feeling is like tattooed to your heart. it hurts when that someone is not around and you’ll continue and continue to miss them. It could go on and on.

Funny isn’t it? It’s so funny that that particular feeling can actually turns your world upside down although not many will admit but they do. Missing someone is a terrible but at the same time, sweet feeling. You will be sitting around wondering if you meant anything to him/her. Thinking if he/she ever cares about you, rushing to the phone once it rings hoping that it’s him/her. Funny …

So, could it be any harder? Tell them you love them then. If you can’s say it. Just sing it. Like I do. I love you. That three magical words. This song is dedicated to all of you who have been kind enough to stay this long and listen to my craps. Enjoy!

So Just To Let You Know - Words & Music by cibol

Verse 1:
I’d like to close my eyes and feel the warmth of your hands
I’d like to be endured in this never-ending dream
The thought of you made it possible
The longing is so incureable
And I .. believe

chorus :
It’s like a tattoo in my heart
I can never let it go
So hard to be apart
So just to let you know
I can’t live without you by my side
Won’t ever think of letting go
So just to let you know
I love you so …

verse 2 :
Riding through the crossroads of my life
I find myself just lost inside this misery
Then came along a ray of wonderous sillhouette
You shine upon my life and now I’m freed
And I … believe

Bridge :
And I can think of a million lies
When it comes to loving you
But i can’t stand to fool myself anymore
Cause you’re the one i want
I can never let you go …

How did that go? It got a little bit off towards the end because I was exhausted and I don’t give a damn to good recording. Tired of singing it from A to Z …

Speaking of writing more songs, should I try songs in BM?

When hurt, we usually think about ourself more instead of others. It’s hard to be doing something that would be appropriate to be called “making sense”. We got frustrated, hurt, feel like on the verge of breaking down and sometimes feels like that there’s no one left in this world that we can trust. In that process of trying to give comfort to ourselves, we often neglect what others feel and that’s how we causes hurt to the people around us without we knowing it.

Forgiving was never easy. It takes time and it also have to dig up some pride matters of trying to admit that you are wrong or to swallow the hard truth that it’s gone. To think of it, when we finally recover, somehow we can smile at it and maybe think of it as a sweet frustration. It’s frustrating, but a sweet one.

Disappointments lead by underachieved expectations .. well, from any sides la. My take on it, the ability to forgive and forget is very important. It’s divine in a sense. It might be hard to do but at least we try, if we don’t try meaning that we never give each other a chance to at least avoid bigger disappointments that might ruin it all. Listening to one another attentively and sympathetically. In that way, at least we can share the disappointments that we have had, what we are facing and what will we be facing in the future, because we never know. So, don’t wait for everything to be in place, because while waiting we might miss the best shot

When a new chapter in life is open, whether it’s gonna be the end of everything or a start of a new beginning, we will never know but when you agreed to stand up and never look back, I guess that’s already a big achievement in yourself. You’ve grown, you’ve gotten stronger.

It’s nothing complicated really. I was just trying to make a nice introduction to my long awaited with music version of - Will It Be. Here you are and happy listening!

Will It Be - Words & Music by Cibol

Let it go
Let it be the way it should be
Don’t hold back
I don’t care what they say

Twice as much
That it keeps me young and moving
Home affairs mingling through my ears

I fall apart within myself
I’m so tired I can’t breathe

Will it be the end of everything?
That we built with these two hands
All gone …
Will it be a start of a new beginning?
That we’ll be going through and through
Everyday …
Will it be?

And for that, happy weekend!